Stop Hurting Me & Yet I Feel Nothing

Can someone please point me in the direction of life's easy button. I feel that for all my hard work, accomplishments, and material things I'm even less of the man I once dreamed I'd be. Every step is the wrong way, every piece of advice has consequences, every hint dropped is a chance to be burned. Is this all there is? Am I slave to my own ambitious nature? Do I give to others where I should be taking? The mirror on the wall never answers. Loneliness is the deepest hole... what gross things we eat in that pit.